… when I am worried about things, I imagine myself back in Milton Keynes, napping in the middle of the day, listening to the sound of the builders creating the new buildings outside. Somehow the rhythmic “boom” the cranes were making was a comforting sound, and knowing it was the middle of the day and I could sleep whenever I wanted was heaven, and, of course, having Ian with me every moment was perfect.

Normally, I wake up by 4:30am.. not to get up, really, but I have a hard time getting back to sleep. I think about crazy things like whether I plugged my smartphone in, or whether my debit card is still in my purse, whether I locked my work PC, or what I have to do at work that day.

I guess there are tricks to getting back to sleep. One of them is to not think too much about anything. That’s when I go back to Milton Keynes and think about taking a nap.